Dad calling again. I better answer
[this is boiled down. Dad calls always take an hour or more.]
Dad: hi, what are you doing?
me: I was about to take a nap but, not now, Hi!
Drop your fanmix request in my askbox. There’s still plenty of time!
I’m too alone in the world, yet not alone enough
to make each hour holy.
I’m too small in the world, yet not small enough
to be simply in your presence, like a thing—
just as it is.
I want to know my own will
and to move with it.
And I want, in the hushed moments
when the nameless draws near,
to be among the wise ones—
or alone.
I want to mirror your immensity.
I want never to be too weak or too old
to bear the heavy lurching image of you.
I want to unfold.
Let no place in me hold itself closed,
for where I am closed, I am false.
I want to stay clear in your sight.